* Sunday, March 02, 2003*

today...juz came back frm camp..
hardly slept much..well..
at least i had quite a gud time dere...
cried my heart out on my dear frenz..
im so sorri all for being such a wreck..
well..thankew all of ya who lend me ur shoulder...
it sure made a difference to me....
i totally didnt expect me to react liddat..
i was so sure tht i've been realli strong these dayz..
compared to my old *soft* n *cryish* self before..
i so believed tht i change...
e release of e results sure proved me wrong...
i broke down..
...n tis time..
it was a serious one...
i absolutely lost my composure...
as i left e warm tears hurriedly rolled down my cheeks...
i felt so totally useless...
as much as i wanted to control my emotions...
my other got e beta of me...
i sank rite down to e bottom...
its felt like sucha deep n mysterious pit...
e feeling is unfathomable..
i felt as if im a multi-faceted crystal lattice...
trying so hard to show tht glimmer of shine...
to hide away all tht sorrow n pain inside...
all i cld do is pretend to smile n be hapi..
i realli appreciate all e care concern n well wishes..
thankew all for showering me ur love..
esp ~*KX*~..
thx again...!
for all those who suffered e trauma of me n my hot-temperedness n nonsense..
i truly apologise..
i was realli very snappy n intolerable..
im sorri...
hope evryone out dere is feelin okie..
shall not lament on...
take kare evryone..
love ya..
~tas
Tas_anne @ Sunday, March 02, 2003